what to do with success

IMAG3368Last night I dreamt I was studying abroad in China. The made-up city I was in had a curfew and no one could be on the streets after a certain time. The only way you could travel was through the hills on a bamboo track, like a narrow ski slope that  you needed a wooden paddle to propel yourself across.  

Sometimes dreams don't make total sense, don't have a context. But that doesn't mean you shouldn't write them down.

And today I'm choosing to not analyze my dream, but instead just allow it to be, like any sign or symbol that makes an appearance in sleeping or waking life.

 

(Not what you expected from a post about success, right? It comes together. You'll see.)

 

I don't know about you, but I've been over-thinking and over-analyzing often lately and it's getting tiring.  Even after the excitement of winning the BAM contest, I went into a mental spiral of guilt and and worry: "Will people think I'm an ego-maniac? Did I send out too many emails or ask for too much? Am I too much? Maybe I should give it all away..."

Yes, those thoughts went through  my head. And no, I'm not asking for validation or compliments or reassurance. I'm clear that it's part of the process and there is a part of me that wants to cling to fear and negativity when it notices the deeper part of me being recognized. Has that ever happened to you?

Sometimes we stop ourselves before we even get close to success. 

With practice, we allow ourselves to become successful and then freak out afterwards. 

With even more practice, we learn to just be with our success and celebrate and share it -- perhaps redefining our definition of what we thought success should be -- and then let it open us up to the next sign, the next direction, the next dream.

Because after all, we come to realize that it's not really in our control. 

So for today, I'll leave you with that. I encourage you to take note of your dreams and your successes and be with them in whatever state you find them. Let yourself freak out when you need to, and happy dance when you're ready to.

What does your reaction to success look like?

Share with me below.

And getting back to my dream in China: I don't remember where I was going, but it was exhilarating to glide through the unknown.

riding the momentum with you,

jess