if you're wanting external validation

It’s so great to feel external validation sometimes: Having people sign up for your event, buy your product, like your Facebook post, etc.

But what happens when they don’t?

What happens to you inside when the external results don’t match your expectations?

Some common reactions might be:

• Quitting - because it must mean that no one cares or wants what you’re sharing

• Hitting the downward spiral of self-doubt and beating yourself up for what you did wrong or for not being good enough

• Pitying yourself via pints of ice cream and “wa-wa” sessions with your friend

• Shitting on someone else’s success because you’re bitter that they are making it happen and you aren’t

All those make me scrunch my nose in disgust. Mostly because I’ve been in depths of each of them and it feels really crappy to think about being there again.

Quitting, Hitting, Pitying, Shitting = Not Prettying.

I’ve recently been challenged to go back there, though -

In both the dance classes and workshops that I’ve recently taught, I’ve averaged 1 or 2 people who have shown up to participate. My goal was 10 or more.

I could easily have made it mean that I’m just terrible at what I do, that I’m a bad business person for not being more proactive about marketing, that I might as well let other dance classes just take over the world because mine doesn’t really matter.

What stopped me from hitting that downward spiral?

Although I came close, and definitely started to hear those voices in my head, here are some of the things that were present for me and helped avoid it:

1. Emotional breakdowns. (I’ve been surrendering to cry sessions much more lately and learning that releasing emotions is an extremely powerful tool.)

2. My support network. (I have a coach and friends who have helped me stay true to who I am and recognize my value.)

3. The people who do show up. (When that 1 person walked into the dance studio, I just loved her up. I was in awe of her bravery and dedication to the process, and I learned so much from her as we went through the class.)

Here’s what I’ve learned from all of that:

Your internal state of feeling worthy, valuable, and loved trumps everything else.

Your internal state is responsible for the external results.

I still had that deep part of me that felt unworthy, unable to receive love/money/etc, disconnected from own value. I felt like I was trying so hard but not getting any results. The pushing/forcing energy was exhausting me and causing a lot of frustration, pain, and confusion in my life. It was almost as if that internal unworthy belief was creating the external results to reinforce it.

I don’t think something that deep can be removed in one moment, but I do think the shift has been put into motion in a powerful way. I already feel 10 times different: re-inspired in my work and excited to see what happens in the next month from this new energy.

It’s now my job to stay aware of when I shrink back into unworthiness - which is usually indicated by trying too hard, comparing myself to others' success, or feeling sorry for myself - and to take actions to love and accept  myself more and more each day.

The same goes for you.

If anything in your external results is not matching your expectations, take a moment to examine your internal state. Is there a part of you that feels not good enough or unworthy? If you were worthy of greatness and success, how would you act? What would you do differently?

Take a moment to share in the comments below:

Tell us about a time when something you created didn’t receive as much external validation as you had hoped for. The more we out ourselves about this, the more we can all just chill out, stop comparing, and start creating from a more authentic and loving place.

Sometimes all it takes is one person who believes in you to create and grow something amazing.

Let’s stop pushing and forcing results, and instead start believing in ourselves from the depths of our being.

As Janis Joplin once said,

Don't compromise yourself. You are all you've got.

from my inner world to yours,

Jess

don't feel qualified enough? try this.

A theme I hear repeatedly from clients is the fear of being not qualified or advanced enough to do the work they really want to do.

i.e.

How can I teach dance if I haven’t been trained formally?

Who am I to share my paintings on Facebook if I’m not a “real” artist?

Why would anyone listen to my songs?

Did you ever NOT do something because you didn’t feel qualified or advanced enough?

If so, your challenge this week is to not only do it, but to start teaching it to someone.

The truth is, you can learn so much more through teaching and sharing what you do know - even if it only seems like a little bit.

You’ll never truly feel “ready” - you just have throw yourself into the field and play, and trust that the right people will show up to match what you’re offering.

Here’s an example -

In 2008 I was living in Manhattan in my mid-20s. I had the experience of feeling isolated in such a big, tough city, and craved more community with other women. So I started a Meetup.com group and called it the NYC Goddesses.

1 person showed up to the first meeting. At the second meeting 3 people came.

Then I got contacted by a bookshop who wanted to host my meeting monthly at their cafe, and all of a sudden I had a dozen people or more every time. The bookstore was a New Age kind of place and interpreted my Goddess title as being focused around Goddess spiritual practices, which I was interested in, too, but didn’t know much about.

So I learned as I taught. I brought a new Goddess story each week and generated discussion around it. I learned so much from the women who came. I was opened up to a whole new world that influenced the way I approached my life, my coaching work, and my creative practices.

To this day, although I no longer run the meetup group, I’ve cultivated a sisterhood of supportive friendships in my life, and I practice ritual, follow the moon cycles, and feel that Goddess spiritual connection. If I hadn’t led that group and learned as I went, I might not have all this as part of my life today. And that would be sad.

There are actually endless examples. This blog is one. I didn’t start it because I was an expert on creativity, I started it because my soul was craving growth in that area and I knew I couldn’t do it in isolation. The same goes for my dance videos and teaching.

No matter what level you’re at, there is someone a few steps behind you that can learn so much from what you teach and share.

If you think you suck, you’ll never get better by not practicing and sharing.

If you think you’re good, it doesn’t mean anything unless you’re actually doing it.

Let your ego step aside, and just follow through with adding your splash of teaching and learning into the mix.

Someday you’ll look back and say, “Remember when I was too scared to do that thing? Ah-ha-ha-ha-ha!”

If you need a boost, here are 2 ways to get things moving with me:

If you’re in NYC, I encourage you to come to my Move Through It workshop on Monday.

If you’re not, I encourage you to join me on Instagram since today is the first day of “Dance A Day, in the month of May.”

Let’s do stuff. It’s too boring not to.

teaching and learning with you,

Jess

p.s. Did you ever teach something before you felt ready? What did the experience teach you? Tell us in the comment box below. I'd love to hear, and I'm sure someone else would, too

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didn’t get your “work” done? oh, that’s living.

Crap.

I didn’t get everything done on my to-do list.

I had to reschedule that appointment.

I didn’t “work” enough today.

(“work” is loosely translated as sitting in front of the laptop pecking away at something that seems really important.)

If any of these words have come out of your mouth lately, GOOD!

It’s a sign you’re actually living life.

As I went through my week, I noticed how anxious I was to get this blog post and other writing done. I did not plan the topic in advance. I did set aside time to write, but the time kept getting moved or pushed aside because of other things.

The frustration and anxiety rose -

But why was I feeling that way?

Really, it came from a place of fear of not having enough time and wanting to just “get it over with” so that I could not worry.

Then on the B train on my way to visit a friend, it hit me and I pulled out my notebook to scribble:

The balance of living life vs. documenting it.

Your experiences lead you to the truth meant to be spoken (or written).

Your experiences - with the world, with other humans - are what bring you to your truth. Sitting in front of a laptop trying to think about what to write is not always the way in.

I thought about how much richness and learning were embedded in the experiences and conversations I had been having throughout the week.

Monday was an example -

Stuck at an airport for 8 hours, I put a lot of expectations on myself about how much time I should spent writing and getting that very important “work” done. I took a break in the yoga room (yes, SFO has a yoga room!) and it led to a dance break which led to making new friends and making a dance video:

I’m so happy I didn’t sit in front of my laptop, which seemed like the easier, more responsible option. Instead, I followed my impulse to move my body and connect with people and it was so fun.

So what if I didn’t get ahead of the game with “work?”

Maybe my “work” is in the moving my body and connecting to people. Can it be that simple? I think it can.

And I’ll say the same to you:

Follow the impulse and desire inside of you. The work you’re meant to do will reveal itself that way.

There’s a time to integrate and document your experiences - and that part is so necessary! But don’t force it or rush it. The more you LIVE, the more natural the documentation process will feel.

And one more thing -

If you’re not sure if your impulse or desire is aligned or the right thing to do in the moment, here a few questions you can ask yourself. I got these questions from an amazing teacher of mine, Amy Jo Goddard:

1. Is it something I want to be, do, or have?

2. Does it create more life for me and others?

3. Does being, doing, or having it take me closer to my goal?

4. Does it limit anyone’s freedom, choice, or well-being?

If you can answer YES to the first 3, and NO to #4, then it’s pretty safe to say that your desire is a GO.

Trust that impulse. Ditch “work” for a day if you need to. Be messy. Be truthful. Be connected.

And then take time to make art out of it all.

from the field of experience to you,

Jess

thinking vs. doing: carolyn's story of transformation through dance

If dance is a mirror for life - which I happen to believe to be true - then one of the things I’ve learned is that you have to start moving your body if you want to make stuff happen. You can’t just think things into reality.

If you’ve ever learned about vision boards and the Law of Attraction, you might be familiar with the concept of visualizing things in an effort to manifest them in your life. For example, you want to make more money so you visualize your bank account with more money in it every day until it happens.

That’s kind of a simplified version, and I’m sure there are Law of Attraction experts who can give you more details, but you get the gist.

If you take it a step further, you might have learned that just visualizing things isn’t enough. You have to FEEL them to make them happen. Thanks to the work of Danielle LaPorte and her Desire Map, we see how this is possible.

What if there were a third layer?

The movement layer. The dance layer. The move-it-through-your-body-til-you-lose-your-mind layer.

I’m really interested in that layer.

The more I’ve challenged myself to get out there and dance - anyplace, anywhere, but also just in the privacy of my room - the more I’ve felt confident to take actions in other areas of my life. I’ve seen this to be true with my clients, too.

Don’t just visualize what you want. Feel it in your body, and then move it through your body. Dance it out. Let ‘er rip.

In a moment you’ll hear more from my client Carolyn, who just completed the Thriving Artist’s Program with me. In 9 months she went from “living a life paved by others” to stepping into her truth and full expression as a dancer, choreographer, and coach. So much of our process together was helping her break through the crap that was in the way of her taking action. Step by step, dance by dance, her life took on the shape of what was inside of her.

I want the same for you. I want you to dance into your truth and stop getting caught up in your head. This is how we’ll collectively make a positive impact on this planet.

If you happen to be in the NYC area, I’m teaching classes and workshops that you can join - a perfect way to get that action flowing! You can also check out Carolyn’s classes on the West Coast!

So continue reading to check out Carolyn’s Showcase interview and dance video and share in the comments below how it inspires you to take action with your own dreams and passions.

through the body and into the world,

Jess

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Thriving Artists Program Showcase, featuring:

Marie Carolyn Gatus, Dancer/Choreographer, Life Coach

Learn more about Carolyn's work here at her website and check out her Meetup Group: Movement Reflective

“I feel so much more connected to Who I Am and am a thousand times more clear in expressing my truth.”

Before working with Jess, I was struggling with allowing my creativity to flow.  I wasn't even acknowledging that I was creative at all.  I was suppressing it consciously and unconsciously always being too busy or feeling like it wasn't important enough to give time for.  I was living a life paved by others and I thought I would be living that way for the rest of my life.  And yet, my Creative Self kept calling, yearning to come out.

It had been 10 years since I danced from my heart at the time I met Jess, and it seemed like such a distant memory.

I still can't believe and yet I DO BELIEVE IT, within 9 months I choreographed 2 pieces that were near and dear to my heart and performed these two pieces in front of a supportive audience on two separate days.  I also created a Meetup group that meets every few weeks, where men and women can gather in person or virtually to express their souls through free movement dance.  I loved the fact that I was able to meld my interests in spirituality with my love of dance.  I never thought that would be possible for me, and yet it became so.

I also launched my work as a coach during the TAP program. I conducted a teleseminar which I had never done before and a class at Whole Foods that included using Movement for Beauty.  After the class, I was booked for another class and will be doing more workshops locally and online regarding the meaning of having movement in our lives.  I am also in the process of creating a course on Reflective Movement which I hope to release very soon.  It's all been such an exciting journey and has opened a whole new world of possibilities for me.  I couldn't have done it all without Jess.  I am so truly grateful.

Jess is an amazing guide.  She understood all my fears about making a living dancing, about being accepted, about being creatively stagnant, about giving value to my passion, about navigating through changes in my relationships because of choosing to live from the heart.  She has been through it and knew the exact words to say to keep me focused and creating as well as to be gentle with myself when I'm not feeling creative...to still be open to inspirations.  She understood the cycles creative artists go through and lovingly guided me through it.  I trusted her and valued her support and guidance.

Most importantly, she helped me release so much of the pain and conditioning that blocked my creative flow and challenged me to connect deeper with my feelings and voice them through my art of dancing.  I feel so much more connected to Who I Am and am a thousand times more clear in expressing my truth.  The creative well was tapped open and will forever continue to flow.

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Does Carolyn's story inspire YOU?

If so, I invite you to check out the Thriving Artist's Program and apply here. Imagine what would open up in your life if you were expressing your truth and connected to the creative well inside of you.

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dancing through loss, love, & everything in between

I spent Sunday with my best friend at her home in the Jersey Shore, sorting through closets full of the gorgeous, petite-sized, vintage clothes of her late mother.

When Allison’s mom, Cecilia Joy (aka Diane Leslie), passed on last August, it took everyone by surprise. The magical creative muse who seemed ageless to most had suddenly left us. I did my best to be there for my friend and help her cope through the most painful time of her life.

(You can read more of Allison and her mom’s story below.)

It happened during the final month of rehearsals for the premiere of Swan Canal, the first dance show I had ever created and choreographed, in which Allison was part of, preparing to perform for the first time in 10 years. (She is a doctor by day, dancer by night :) ).

Allison took her mother’s mantra of “The Show Must Go On,” and decided to continue rehearsing and perform with us.

As painful as it was for her - for many reasons - she also recognized how extremely important it was to continue dancing through it.

Allison told me a couple of months ago that one night in her living room, she had started choreographing a dance.

It worked through her complicated relationship with her mother, and despite all the therapy she had been engaged in, this seemingly simple act was incredibly healing and transformative. She asked if I would help her develop the piece and bring it to a performance space. I said yes, of course.

And so on our drive back from Jersey, the backseat full of salvaged furs and floral print dresses, we talked more about that process and I got the nudge from the universe that it was time to make this an experience that more people could benefit from.

And such was birthed:

MOVE.through.IT:

a dance lab for creating through loss, love, & everything in between

Over the years, I’ve worked with many clients who have dealt with the loss of loved ones  in the past, and I’ve seen how so often unresolved relationships cause blocks in their experience of full creative expression and happiness today. I’ve witnessed clients start dance companies, start singing again, and get on stage for the first time in years through our program together. And while the work I do is not therapy, it is the art that helps them work through these deep wounds.

So I’m creating a new dance workshop series which is for you if:

• you have a complicated or unresolved relationship that you sense is weighing on you, such as: you’ve lost a loved one, lost your home, stopped talking to your mother, broke up or got divorced, etc,
• you identify as a dancer - even if it’s been years since you’ve actually danced
• you sense that self-expression through dance and creating a movement piece are what your heart and soul are craving right now.

Click here for more details on the 2 upcoming intro classes in NYC and NJ.

If you are not in the area but still interested, send me a note, because there are other ways we can work together in this capacity. 

I'm curious to know -

Has creative expression ever helped YOU cope with a loss?

I encourage you to share your story in the comments below.

And, I’ll leave you with a beautiful piece written by Allison in honor of her mother and their dance through this lifetime. The pictures and music alone are worth a thousand words…

all love,

Jess

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From Allison:

My mother was the epitome of creativity. She devoted herself to creativity, to art, to expression.

She was born with perfect pitch, which my grandparents, Ida and Norman, realized when my Mom – born Cecelia Joy Notov on November 26 - was just five years old. She never forgot to remind me about it. “Did you know that’s in D flat minor?” she’d say when I was 12 and we’d watch old black and white movies over ice cream sundaes on Saturday nights (which I’d label with “A” for Allison and “M” for “Mom” in Hershey’s syrup) and listen to the orchestrations accompanying the credits. I had no idea it was D flat minor. My pitch is relative at best.

By the age of 14, Mom was a soloist with the Pittsburgh Symphony, playing the Grieg Concerto to a sold out audience at Heinz Hall. By 17, she was booked on dates in NYC, Canada, and cruise ships as a concert pianist, singer, performer….a creative genius. She was “Cee Cee Joy,” the newest sensation from Squirrel Hill, Pittsburgh. And she was GORGEOUS.

Soon after, she moved to NYC and took a stage name – “DIANE LESLIE” – less Jewish, she was told. But in recent years, just 8 months ago in fact, in summer 2014, she told me she wanted to go back, “I think I’ll be more successful as Cecelia, what do you think?” (Notably, when I was 6 and got my first professional gig on stage with the Dallas/Fort Worth Ballet I was given the stage name “Allison Joyce” and kept it throughout my dancing career. Perhaps I should go back?).

After college at NYU where she studied Music Education, Mom made it big as a concert pianist, singer, composer, actress, and TV anchor in NYC.  And lucky for her, she met her prince charming (and the most amazing dad in the world) in a recording studio, where she was recording a hit for Warner Brothers Records, and he was heading up the music department. As she tells it, she saw my father and told her best girlfriend, “that’s the man I’m going to marry.” And so she did.

Over the course of her career, Mom concertized across the world, Alice Tully Hall, Heinz Hall, Steinway Hall, the list is endless. She wrote music for stage and screen. She was a creative director behind and television anchor for the News Center 4 show, “Kids Stuff” for years. She wrote the theme song to the show Small Wonder.  She played the “Snow Queen” on ABC’s Pinocchio’s Christmas. She played guitar. She sang. And excuse my language, she played the F*** out of the piano. There was no piece that she couldn’t master. Greig concerto? Done. Layenda? Got it.

And composition? She composed her own music. And she was creative with the works already out there. She took all of Schubert and made his themes modern. Bach? Scarlatti? Brahms? All of them. She was dear friends with Helga Sandburg – the daughter of the great poet, Carl Sandburg – and months before her passing put all of his poems to music (an album I am confident is going to sell, just like her first album, which can be found here: http://www.cdbaby.com/cd/dianeleslie ).

But, like most artists, Mom also struggled.

The career is not an easy one, especially as you age. “What’s my age range?” was a daily question. She wanted to be eternally her 17 year old self. And I believe she is at this very moment.

My Mom was on the adjunct faculty at NYU, teaching piano to students worldwide. She was also my first and most difficult piano teacher. Most importantly and dear to her heart, she was named a Steinway Artist in 2010. The title allowed her to go to Steinway Hall weekly and practice the piano in her beloved Rachmaninoff room, as it was called (interestingly, the Hall closed a month after my mom left this space-time).

My mother was a musical genius. She never really learned to use a computer keyboard, but made up for it on the real keys. She never really learned to manage her finances, but she could somehow understand the math behind the rhythm of the music.

A month before she left, she told me “If I cannot play the piano, I don’t want to live.” Her death was untimely. Unnecessary. Unfair. It had nothing to do with her capacity to play. She died while getting ready for a gig, putting her makeup on. She wanted to go to the studio. I know with all of my heart that she did NOT want to leave. She yearns to still be at her baby grand, playing the F out of those keys.

Professionally – as Dr. Applebaum, and not Allison Joyce – I work with families dealing with chronic illness and the possibility of death and dying. But sudden, untimely death is a different beast. On a scale from 1 – 10, with 10 being the worst emotional pain one can feel, I’d say this was a good 5,000 for me, and still is. The world lost a creative genius, a good 20 years too early. But much more importantly, I lost my Mom.

My Mom left at the worst moment in our relationship. The days of ice cream sundaes were long gone in August 2014. But they didn’t have to be. I wish I could have been more creative emotionally, to allow more of the good to remain when other things were hard. I don’t have one recorded voicemail from her. No recorded conversation. And most devastating, no recording of her annual happy birthday message to me, which would be her classical rendition of the Happy Birthday song, played loud and clear on her Steinway baby grand, after which she’d say “Happy Birthday, Baby.” I’ll never forgive myself for erasing that last message. While I don’t have a verbal conversation between Mom and myself recorded, I do have a recording of our playing the Schubert Fantasie in F minor. I was about 14. We were recording it for my grandma Ida to hear. I played the bass and she, the treble. We were a bit off, she was showing off, I was trying to keep up. A musical conversation, perhaps resembling our life-long relationship.

We never know when we will leave this world. We can anticipate it for years,  fear it for years, prepare for it for years, but in cases like mine, my 93 year old frail father is still with me, and my “forever 17” mother is gone. Much too soon. What I’m left with is her music. Her CD’s. Hundreds of them. Recordings of every one of her piano lessons. Recordings of her in the studios. The musicals she composed. Her unpublished work. Literally hundreds of notebooks with sheets with the letters “a” “d” “g” and so on written (my mother wasn’t one for writing notes on the musical staff). Beautiful songs the world may never hear.

I’m hoping to use creativity to help me cope with the vast emptiness left by my (incidentally just 5’1 and 92 lb) mother’s absence. She left on August 25, 2014. Two weeks after her passing I got back on stage and danced for the first time in 10 years. It felt awful and wonderful. It felt deceitful and right. And I’m getting back on stage this coming month. Always and forever in honor of my Mom. I also have promised her and myself that I am going to learn Chopin’s Fantasie Impromptu. I’ve started working on it on her Steinway baby grand. It’s like re-learning a language I learned years ago. Doing it is frustrating and painful, but connects me to her. I want to learn it. And I want play the F out of those keys like she did. Perhaps even someday to a small audience.

I’ve also promised myself to be more creative, generally. To create new spaces for me to express what is so painful. To be more creative in the work I do professionally, and more creative in how I care for myself.

Clearly, nothing is for sure in life. What I do know for sure is that there is no amount of creativity that can bring our deceased loved ones back. But creativity can bring the possibility of good things to accompany – note, not fill – the void. I’m looking forward to a creative life. To telling my closest girlfriends about my prince charming, and to engaging in the greatest creative act when I’m ready – to create a new life, and hopefully have a daughter, who will be named Cecelia Joy, after her grandmother.

Until those happy days, I will do what I know is healthiest and most painful: listen to her music, cry as she plays, and create a new way of life. Learn to get off the elevator and not hear her playing down the hall, not have her millions of once-bothersome texts and calls, but somehow learn that she’s sitting with me, leaning on my shoulder, living my life with me, in her own new creative way.

3 things to do on the cusp of change

Ah, the cusp…

...when you know you’re tired of the old way, but haven’t yet gotten into the groove of the new.

...when things feel uncertain or unknown, but you know something is shifting.

...when you’re ready to break free but still not fully there.

I sense you’re on a cusp. Are you?

I know I am and so many of my clients and friends have been expressing similar sentiments.

The time of year is partly to blame -

As we anticipate Spring blossoming, there’s an underlying impatience for winter to fully melt away so the new growth can hatch….

How do you wait without going crazy?

Think of having a palette cleanser for your cusp.

Just like people at fancy restaurants eat sorbet from tiny spoons between courses to cleanse the palate, and artists must wash away old paint to make room for fresh colors on their palette -

- you, too, must find a way to clear out the old before letting in the new.

When life feels uncertain and when transition is in full flux, sometimes clearing the slate is the only thing you can actually do to feel proactive.

It might not be with sorbet or soap, but here are a few ideas that have been working for me that I think you’ll appreciate.

3 things to do on the cusp of change

1. Create and conduct a ritual.

...to energetically clear out the things you no longer want, and call in the things you do. Contrary to pop-cultural belief, rituals do not require black lipstick and dramatic eye gazes, ala the 1996 film The Craft.

Rituals can be something that you customize to your own liking. They can be done solo or with other people. They can include candles and sage, or not. The main idea is that it grounds in a specific intention for you. You could write down all the stuff you’re ready to let go of, then rip up the paper and burn it or flush it down the toilet. Sounds simple, but the physical act of doing something like that really makes it real and sends out the energy that you are ready to let go.

If you’re interested in delving in more to ritual, here are a couple of books that have helped me in creating really awesome and effective ones over the years:

Moon Spells: How to Use the Phases of the Moon to Get What You Want

THE JOY OF RITUAL: Spiritual Recipes to Celebrate Milestones, Ease Transitions, and Make Every Day Sacred

2. Clean out your physical space.

Sort through old cabinets and closets and clear out the things that you no longer use or want. Give them away or sell them. Wash the floor. Wash your Brita pitcher. (Seriously, when was the last time you actually thoroughly cleaned either?) Do those things you normally don’t get around to doing and I bet you’ll be amazed at how much lighter you feel.

3. Clean out your internal space.

Is the chai latte and nightly glass of wine really necessary all the time? Are you shoveling in sweets and quick snacks instead of truly nourishing yourself?

We can often turn to sugar, alcohol, or other substances to get us through whirlwinds in our lives. I’ve been there, and a couple of weeks ago realized what was happening and I felt ready to cut out the crap. I created my own meal prep and eating plan that basically helped me cut out the extra sugar and processed foods from my diet in a really healthy way. And wow it’s been huge! I feel like a garden that’s been weeded and fertilized: I’m sleeping better, am more energized throughout the day, and am way more creative and productive.

I know it’s not always easy to do this alone, so if you’re craving support in cleansing your physical body, email me. I will be sharing this food program with a select group of beta users this month, and you could be one of them!

And that my friends, is how I’ve been taking care of myself on the cusp of change. I hope it inspires you to take action for yourself.

So... I’d love to hear what’s up for you -

Feel free to comment below and share more about what you’re ready to cleanse from your life, and how you’re going about it.

I also have a special new dance offering coming to you next week, so stay tuned for that in the meantime.

on the edge of glory with you, → (yep, that’s a Lady Gaga reference)

Jess