the mess continues.

I woke up feeling like shit. My period was due any day and the amount of hormones surging through my system could have powered a Hummer limousine. Instead, it felt like the Hummer limousine had run over me. There were all of these things I needed to do. Errands to run. Deadlines to meet. A sick mother to attend to. Bills to sort through. 

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when life feels really hard.

Life has felt really f#*king shitty lately, globally and personally. The truth is, I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. (first world problems, I know.) I haven't danced in a couple of weeks. And it's really hard to jump back in. (You know when you KNOW that something will make you feel better, yet you still don't want to do it? Yeah, that.)

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on creating through the mess.

Inspired by the musical, RENT... As a 12-year-old girl I wrote in bubble letters on my bedroom wall: Forget regrets, life is yours to mess. That’s how I interpreted the line in the song “No Day But Today,” much later realizing, it’s actually: Forget regrets -- or life is yours to miss. (Call me Messy Jessie… I’ve always been a bit all over the place.) ...

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on not staying silent.

I wasn't going to write to you this week. I’m at the Jersey Shore on my annual family vacation and thought we could all use a break from Creative Fridays. But then Charlottesville. And then Trump (not speaking up about it and then speaking up and then speaking up again to show his true colors as he basically condones this disgusting, evil hate crime.) ...

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august + your creative soul.

August is here. We’ve hit upon a very significant month for your creative life. It starts with August 1st, in traditional pagan cultures known as Lammas, or the festival of first fruits. It’s when we start to see the hints of the harvest that is to come in the fall. It’s a last chance reminder to check yourself before you wreck yourself ...

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let’s spend more time THERE.

Maybe it’s a good thing... When 10 unread texts accumulate by the end of the night because you hadn’t looked at your phone much. When you forget to take the garbage out because you’re in the flow of writing. Or crying. When poems come through your pen more often than to-do lists. When sitting in an hour of traffic feels worth it ...

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julie's first time on stage.

We met on instagram. She messaged me, bummed out that she missed the last dance program I hosted, but little did she know another one was starting up. On the phone a few days later, she tells me about this hidden dream of dancing on stage. She never took formal dance classes, yet she has this vision - so vivid - of being under the lights, freely expressing herself. She took the leap and joined the You Can Dance Again program ...

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new website + big transitions.

So, the short of it is... i have a new website. (Yayyyyyyyyy: because it’s been a long time coming after 5 years and I friggin LOVE it. Hope you do, too. Check it out here.) Like most seemingly shiny new things, though, there’s a lot of grit, grime, and grrrrrr-ing that happens simultaneously, beneath the surface. Tomorrow, I move to New Jersey for a temporary yet unknown amount of time ...

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why your Big Creative Dream might be a fluke

A client recently told me that she wants to write a book. To have a place where she could document her journey through severe depression and how awakening her creativity helped her out of it. I love the idea and feel like it could help so many people. BUT here’s the thing I told her to watch out for: The big idea of the “book” could be enough to keep her not actually living the sentiment of what she wants to write in it ...

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if it wasn’t a “problem,” what would it be?

That crap you’re dealing with at work. Deciding whether or not you want to stay in this relationship. The habit of STILL saying yes to things you don’t want to do, even after all the self-helping you’ve put yourself through. Getting ill. Getting tax-audited. Fuuuuuuuuuck. I’m not here to depress you or remind you of all the crap that might be your problem. I’m here to pose a question for you ...

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he said this to me on Bumble.

“Question: what percentage of the time are you in a great mood?” I paused. What does he mean by that? Not something I had ever specifically thought of, so big props to Mr. Bumble for an insightful question. I responded something like this: “It depends on how you define ‘great’ but I’d say 50% (or less) with the other percentage being things other than ‘bad.’ Some bad moods in there, but also a mix of contemplative, ...

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